This morning I was reminded of one of the reasons I felt a press to do this "different march" - I was MAD! Stomping my feet, yelling at the air, punching' somethin', fed up, angry. Spiritual attack was in my neighborhood, so-to-speak and I wanted to do something about it!
Within my sphere of friends and family, cancer was taking loved ones, young women were having miscarriages, marriages were falling apart, young, healthy men were having strokes, men and women were struggling with identity, and purpose. Car accidents, children with brain injuries, custody battles, grief, money problems, lost jobs and some wrestling with the same "devils" over and over with no victory in sight. Just to name a few.
The warfare was/is thick! Satan uses whatever he can to convince us we are forgotten, defeated, alone, lost and unworthy. This weight and persistence of the spiritual attack challenged me. Do I believe that God is greater than the enemy and all of his demons and devices or don't I? If I do believe then I should mobilize women to focus, pray, and fight for their families. If God is for us who can be against us?! CHARGE!!!!
As I type this post, I am sitting in my husband's hospital room. The battle came to my door this morning. They call it a CVA- a stroke, a blocked carotid artery. Tests, procedures tomorrow. I haven't cried yet, but I know it's coming. What has come already are doubts and questions: Did I bring this on my family by publicly calling women to war on their knees? Do I really believe? Am I smoking what I'm selling?
So I'm reminding myself: I believe in God's love and His sovereignty. I believe Jesus died to save me from my sins and that the Holy Spirit lives in me and I not only have power but access to the throne room. I believe God asked me to convene #adifferentmarch because we are a force to be reckoned with. I believe He goes before us, beside us and behind us. I believe fear is afraid of us! I believe regardless of earthly outcomes, my life, and my family's lives are held in God's merciful hands. I believe all of us have a purpose, and a post. I believe the beauty in our hearts can heal the worst of wounds, and united we are stronger. I believe God fulfills His promises and every word in the Bible is truth. I believe God gave me the gift of my husband, Michael, and if I can sleep tonight, the Holy Spirit will be praying on my behalf while angels surround his bed. I believe NO MATTER WHAT!
John 3:16 - For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Reflection: What do you believe? Really.